Following a spate of family crises, which pushed our relationship to its limits, my partner Deb and I travelled to Thailand in 2019, perhaps searching wistfully to recreate the magic of previous trips.
I took my OM10 Olympus camera with me and captured what was, in truth, a troubled time. For different reasons, we were both fundamentally disconnected from ourselves, and therefore had trouble connecting with each other and with our experiences on the island of Ko Samui.
The blissful state of unity that people seek through practices such as yoga, is a state of deep connection. Considering that we were in one of the prominent Buddhist countries of Southeast Asia, it is disappointing to acknowledge that we couldn’t have been further from this state of mindful connection.
Deb and I made a pilgrimage to Wat Plai Laem and its 18-limbed statue of Guanyin, a bodhisattva who embodies metta, or loving-kindness.
If I were to look upon our trip with loving-kindness, I would remind myself that yoga is a practice. One must continue to show up with no expectation to achieve any particular state, or feel any particular way. All we can do is notice where we are at with non-judgmental awareness.
Our trip was imperfect. Our minds were turbulent. And that’s OK.